September 11th and beyond

So I know I wrote last week but not too much has happened since then only that I feel more stable mentally, emotionally, and I don't feel as crazy!

So yesterday as most know marked the 11 year anniversary of September 11, 2001 which happened to be a Tuesday, and so obviously was yesterday. So thoughts around that date were more prominent. I was a junior in high school, Paul and I were dating. He was the one to tell me what had happened and honestly I did not know what he was talking about "Twin Towers" but when he said the Pentagon, I knew it was bad! After people started finding out, it was chaotic. Kids were being picked up from school left and right. The seniors were escorting kids to cars to leave. Glory and I were taken to our church right next door where my mom was running her parent's day out program. So she was flustered because she was responsible for a bunch of kids as well. I remember we cleaned up the church from the kids, my grandparents were there and then I saw my dad. My dad was always a reserved guy when it came to emotions and expressing himself especially in church. That day I saw him kneel at the alter for the first time and pray. He was shaken. He was in the navy before and still worked as a government contractor for the navy, so before he came I was worried about him. I also remember our youth pastor streamed the news into the sanctuary onto the projector. And that evening we had a prayer and worship service. It is a day I will never forget and almost is hard to believe that I witnessed it. I also remember that say was a beautiful day, crystal clear blue skies. So strange. So yesterday had a lot of emotions wrapped into it. But I want to say thank you to all those who served, and are serving our country. We are safe because of you! And kudos to President Bush at the time for taking action, some did not like him or agree with him totally during his term, but I was thankful for his decision to declare war on terrorism. This war is not over and most likely the war on terror never will be, there will always be those who desire evil and cause terror in others. But their day of judgment will come from God but at the same time, we will continue to fight it and protect ourselves and our children.

Yesterday was also a slightly frustrating day or evening I should say. Obviously I can't go into details, but I will say that I was happy to leave and not look back! The good thing that happened yesterday though was that all of our documents for our adoption have been approved! All we have to get is letters from the doctor discussing our conditions (mine) and surgeries. We also got in the e-mail that we will be starting our home visits soon!! I am excited and nervous, but I know that it will be okay. The social worker is here to help us adopt not tell us we can't and shoot us down.

So today was good, other than waking up at 0630 because little one climbs in our bed and doesn't go back to sleep! The only other thing was the lady at the doctors office was a little curt with me about the medical letters for the adoption which had me almost in tears, but I got over it. We went to the park where I met a friend. Belle and her little boy played so nice and were so cute together! Belle also ended up barefoot, that would totally be my girl! And we had a decent nap, and watched Cars 2. I also did get dishes and laundry done, so I was productive okay?! :-)  And on another good note, Belle is going to sleep much better! We had two nights where she got out of bed after putting her down, but now she stays in bed and she is going to bed at 7:30 because otherwise she doesn't get enough sleep and is so cranky! So she is better rested and so am I. She is much more relaxed and so am I!

God is good and I thank him for all that he has given me! I pray that I can continue to feel this good and normal again. I also pray that our visits and adoption stuff goes smoothly and he continues to provide the funds for us!